It's been a while

I think I am a little more stable now; at least enough to directly talk about this. The last few months have really, without exaggeration, been the hardest ones of my entire life. I honestly had a lot of breaking points where I thought about just stop trying. I really didn't want to be alive anymore, I saw no meaning to anything and I felt such an utter loneliness and sadness everyday that it was honestly toxic for those around me. I always tried to pretend like I was okay, because I didn't want to worry my loved ones; that made everything worse in the end. And I still feel alone, I still feel sad; but I am trying to fix it. I am still dealing with a lot of issues that I really don't know if I will ever be able to solve. But I am trying. And those that are important to me that have supported me through this are my motivation to get out of bed everyday. This is the reason why I have not been answering messages lately, and I apologize to those that tried to contact me these past few months. I have responded to your messages correspondingly by now; thank you so much for being patient. I'm sorry for all the inconveniences that my situation might cause to others, and I hope you understand. Thank you all for your support, thanks to those who sent me messages asking how I was, it really means the world to me. I hope you all have been well, and I hope to be around a little more often now. Again, thank you everyone.